Love Will Tear Us Apart

I remember the smell of fresh cut grass and deep summer nights descending into dreaded mornings with nothing to hold onto but the love in my heart. When this blows over... and we're somewhere else... all good things come to an end... and I don't want to remember ever feeling that frightened.

"Somethings gotta change... quickly... I can't go on much longer like this"

"I wish I had something optimistic to say to let you know that things will change and we'll be ok... but I don't..."

"I don't either"

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"I can't do it anymore... I hate this... all of the pain... I can't..."

"SHUT UP... STOP IT AND GO HOME"

"No... I can't... I just can't"

"Don't do this"

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"I hate you... Don't ever do that to me again"

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"I love you. I wish that I could say it but I can't. I'm sorry"

... I waited so long to say "I love you" and I couldn't even SAY it. I still can't. Not like that. The only way I can explain it as is a deep agonizing pain. It's an unpleasant squeeze. Something so pure and gentle shouldn't feel so awful. It's obvious and probably always was despite our foolishness. We were kids just last year, and somehow we're all grown up and apart. A little is never enough.

I could have pulled harder, but I pushed further, and we were both so busy. "Brilliant minds need time to breath before they reunite with new ideas to share... distance makes the heart grow fonder... blah blah blah" We're both planets orbiting around the sun.

Do I have the energy/patience/desire to resuscitate another friendship? Will it work this time?

Fucking jealousy stings every goddamn day and this has been the worst 6 months of... I don't know... it's been fucking bad and I hate your decisions, but I get it.

"I miss you" doesn't have any weight anymore. I think it too much. I say it too much. My hand is too cold waiting in the wind for you.

When I speak of you, it feels like I'm talking about a dream I had.

I have no desire to recreate that summer-- though lovely it was and I couldn't have made it through without you.

I feel like you're already gone and I let you and I should've tried harder to make you stay... but I don't think you would've.

We'll always have that connection. It will always be meaningful-- but I hate catching up with you and feeling disconnected from you.

Skeleton- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Love my name
Love left dry
Frost or flame
Skeleton me
Fall asleep
Spin the sky
Skeleton me
Love, don't cry
Love, don't cry
Love, don't cry
Skeleton me
Skeleton me

Soon comes rain
Dry your eyes
Frost or flame
Skeleton me
Fall asleep
Spin the sky
Skeleton me
Love, don't cry
Love, don't cry
Love, don't cry
Skeleton me
Skeleton me
Skeleton